Author: RFG

  • Read: The Nothing Man

    The Nothing Man offers something a bit different to the serial killer, cat-and-mouse thriller staple and two nights running I read up until midnight because I wanted to know what would happen. Initially, the book-in-a-book idea made me a little sceptical but I needn’t have been. We have two narrators; the first, of our book, is Jim Doyle, who we already know is the serial killer in question; the second, of the book he’s reading, is Eve Black, a woman who survived Jim’s most brutal attack as a child. Neither are 100% trustworthy, which adds some nice extra layers of mystery. Catherine Ryan Howard has done well to make Jim a really odious figure and – despite him being our primary narrator – we really want him to get caught.

    Added bonus is this is not a thriller set in America, like so many are; it’s set in Ireland, in otherwise sleepy Co. Cork, and this gives the impact of the murders a little more punch because they truly stand out in the collective memories and because we know then that law enforcement was never prepared for such crimes.

    Overall, this is a captivating read and well worth looking into for a bit of a different approach to storytelling in the thriller genre.

    4/5

    This was an Advanced Reader Copy, courtesy of NetGalley and the publishers, in exchange for honest review.

  • Read: Invisible Differences

    With lovely art style and a story told with compassion, Invisible Differences is about a woman in her late 20’s being diagnosed with Asperger’s in a country that doesn’t give it much credence where misinformation is rife. While Marguerite’s story is centred around autism, this is a story that anyone with a form of neuro-divergence can recognise themselves in and find a bit of comfort in seeing Marguerite triumph.

    It is also wonderful as an educational tool to explain what living with ASD (or generally being neuro-atypical, or having a chronic condition) is like in a way that isn’t condescending or light-footed. It’s perfect to evoke an empathy and understanding in others who may not have first hand experience of conditions like this. To those of us who have, Dachez leaves us a heartwarming note at the beginning of the book to remind us we shouldn’t hold ourselves to the standards of others and to live our lives without fear. Something we could all do with being reminded of now and then.

    I see a lot of myself in Marguerite: sensitive to noise, drained by social interactions and the spoon theory as well as some of the negative interactions she goes through before officially receiving her diagnosis. The uplifting outcome is all the better for knowing this is a true story of the author and her artist friend.

    This has been a translation from a French original and I didn’t detect any jilted phrases along the way so excellent in every respect.

    With thanks to NetGalley and the publisher for offering an ARC (Advanced Readers Copy) in exchange for honest reviews.

    Invisible Differences’ English edition is set to be published 18 August 2020 from Oni Press.

    You can also see this review on GoodReads, here: https://www.goodreads.com/review/list/33265375-rai-fg

  • Read: The Hospital

    The Hospital
    Keith C. Blackmore

    Format: Audible
    Cost: Free

    I gave this a go as it was free on Audible and I would say if it ever moves out of that and requires a charge/credit; don’t bother. From the very outset there was wave after wave of awful similes like an ocean of garbage breaking on the shore of your mind. If ever you took an English class on creative writing you will note a couple of things the author has done that your secondary school teachers instructed you to avoid:

    1. untamed similes running rampant that add nothing to the story
      1. Much more likely to jolt you out of the story by how bizarre some of them are: “storm clouds as depressing as suicide”
    2. repeated the same phrase within a short space of time/text
      1. “Back when the world was…” crops up three (3) times in the hour-long audio
    3. unnecessary swearing

    I’m all for swearing, I do it a lot, and there are times when it really adds just the right kick to the story or the dialogue. In this, however, there’s random swearing where it’s not really needed and largely makes no sense, which means when it comes to crunch time at the climax of the story the swearing doesn’t have as much impact.

    The audiobook only lasts one (1) hour, mercifully, and the narrator is almost as painful as the prose. The main ‘shock value’ zombie event is something that, if you’ve ever played Dead Space 2, has been done much better elsewhere.

    1 star because it’s free and short; otherwise, give it a miss.

     

    See this review in situ on GoodReads here: https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/16123747-the-hospital

  • Reading Challenges 2020

    Here we have my 2020 list of prompts and a few reading-related challenges too. Prompts have been cobbled together from a variety of sources (mostly POPSUGAR, BookRiot and Modern Mrs Darcy) and a couple of my own devising.

    Rai’s Reading Challenge Prompts 2020:

    • A ghost story
    • A story with dragons
    • A book that’s published in 2020
    • A book by a trans or nonbinary author
    • A previous Goodreads Choice award winner
    • A sci-fi/fantasy novella (< 150 pages)
    • A ‘doorstopper’ (> 500 pages) published after 1950, written by a woman
    • A book you picked because the title caught your attention
    • Read a banned book during Banned Books Week
    • A book published in the month of your birthday
    • Read the last book in a series
    • Read a retelling of a classic, fairytale or myth
    • A book gifted to you
    • A book you chose because of the cover art
    • A book outside of your (genre) comfort zone
    • A book with a queer character/s
    • A book with a disabled character
    • A book with a 4 star rating on Goodreads
    • An audiobook
    • A book that has been on your TBR since 2017 or earlier

    Reading-related Challenges:

    • Only buy myself secondhand books
    • When buying a new physical book, ‘destash’ an equal number of books to make space on the shelves
    • Show up to a Book Club at least once

    Goodreads Challenge: 24 books

    6 ‘Must Read’ TBR 2020:

    • The Obelisk Gate (audiobook)
    • The Arkhel Conundrum
    • The Priory of the Orange Tree
    • Reality is not what it seems
    • Daughter of the Empire
    • The Twelve
  • Reading Challenge 2019: wrap-up

    Part way through the year I compiled myself a list of prompts and stipulations as reading challenges. Now that we’re at the end of 2019, it’s time to see how I did!

    Core Challenges: 5 points each

    • A book with ‘cat(s)’ in the title: ‘If Cats Disappeared from the World’
    • Set in space: ‘The Long Way to a Small, Angry Planet’
    • Set in Scandinavia: ‘The Twisted Tree’
    • Published this year (2019): ‘I Know Everything’
    • Published before you were born: ‘The Wasp Factory’
    • A ghost story
    • A story with dragons
    • A non-fiction book: ‘We Should All be Feminists’
    • A comic or graphic novel: ‘Wolverine: Infinity Watch’
    • A translated book: ‘If Cats Disappeared from the World’
    • A book you know nothing about: ‘I Know Everything’
    • A book someone recommended to you personally: ‘The Wasp Factory’
    • Tagged LGBT on Goodreads: ‘They/Them’ & ‘The Long Way to a Small, Angry Planet’
    • A debut novel: ‘The Wasp Factory’
    • A sequel: ‘Head On’
    • …with a two word title: ‘Ghost Wall’
    • An audiobook: ‘Lock In’
    • …from an author from Asia, Africa or Latin America: ‘If Cats Disappeared from the World’
    • A book over 500 pages long: ‘Killing Floor’
    • …that is also (or shortly will be) a movie/TV Series: ‘Sharp Objects’

    TOTAL: 90/100

    Bonus Challenges: 10 points each

    • A multi-author book (translators don’t count): ‘They/Them’
    • …in a genre you don’t normally choose
    • Read more than one translated or International book during the year: ‘If Cats Disappeared from the World’ & ‘We Should all be Feminists’
    • A book you’ve owned for more than 5 years (and haven’t read yet): ‘Play Dead’
    • A “book to read before you die”

    TOTAL: 120/150

    Know Thy Enemy Ultra Challenge: 50 points

    • Read a book by an author you actively dislike

    GRAND TOTAL: 120/200


    The two ‘Core’ challenges that I didn’t get done (ghosts and dragon) I will put into the list of prompts for a 2020 Reading Challenge along with whatever else I can think of or lift from other people’s challenge lists.

    I did have an author in mind for the Ultra Challenge and may try and read them next year.

    Overall I think I will ditch the multi-tiered approach with different point values and go for a much simpler, single list for 2020 as while 90/100 sounds good; 120/200 doesn’t sound as good.

    My Goodreads Reading Challenge target is 24 books and I’m going to pick 5 or 6 titles that I will say I definitely want to tackle in 2020. I plan to do a separate post delving more into the new challenge list and my reading aims for the year as I’ve got a couple of reading-related ideas to explore too. Good luck to everyone else out there with your reading goals for 2020!

  • Read: Sharp Objects

    One thing that you might not glean from the blurb is that some of the content might cause discomfort for some readers. Here’s a big ole CW for you: sex, rape, self-harm, drug and alcohol misuse, child abuse/murder, and teeth.

    Beyond that, this is a fairly standard thriller. Admittedly not told from the perspective of the police, instead from Camille the journalist, but it’s still predictable in terms of the ‘Whodunnit’ part of the plot. The clues Flynn leaves are big and obvious and I found myself wanting to reach in and shake Camille for being so blind to it all on several occasions. Perhaps that is the point? To show how we do not wish to believe the worst in the people we know, no matter how much evidence there is.

    Camille is a walking litany of self-harm (sex, drugs, alcohol, sharp objects…), which I found a little difficult to read at times as she tries to defend her decisions as rational. This is a commonality I found with The Grownup, both protagonists are very sexual and use sex as a way to get what they want (as is one of the key supporting characters in Sharp Objects) however there is no criticism of this and how a society puts women in a position like that has something deeply wrong with it. Because of this, I can’t quite tell if Flynn is trying to be a pro-sex feminist, reclaiming it for women to wield or whether she’s playing into patriarchal rhetoric.

    Given some of the issues I had with the book and the predictable perpetrator I don’t feel I can give this more than 3 stars. Entertaining enough but has it’s problems.

    3/5

    See this review on Goodreads here: https://www.goodreads.com/review/show/3086425953

  • Tattoo Stories #1

    A lot of content creators – with tattoos – seem to do explanation posts or videos going through their tattoos and sharing the stories behind them.  I thought this would be a good exercise for me to go through as well and it can be something I can keep contributing to as and when I get more tattoos.

    I currently have 5 tattoos; the first of which I got in 2014 and then I got one each year up to 2017, nothing in 2018, and then another one this year (2019).  I will split up these into a separate post each to keep everything to a sensible length so it’s easier to read.

    Despite wanting tattoos since I was 15 or 16 I didn’t get any until I was 26 for a variety of reasons.  Firstly, I was very hesitant before that as I couldn’t decide what to get and I was concerned about not liking something that I wasn’t 100% sure about after it was done.  Secondly, going through university I didn’t have a lot of spare cash and my first full time job wasn’t until 2 years after graduating – in the summer of 2013.  I didn’t want to go to a cheap studio or artist because I wanted to wait, save up and pay to have a well respected artist who had a long reputation that I could trust.  I’d heard and seen first-hand the results of cheap studios: misspelled words, backwards numbers, wonky stars.  I wasn’t going to risk going cheap and looking shit.

    That’s not to say that I wasn’t having ideas over all these years.  In fact, my first tattoo was an idea I’d developed a good 7+ years before I got it and relates back to something that I’d had in my head since 15 years old.  At that age, I’d had a dream that I later formulated into an idea for a story and in this came about the concept of ‘Wvelkala’.  In this fictitious universe, Wvelkala was a sort of demi-god who had created magic in the world.  Wvelkala was also me, as the author, and while I realise how narcissistic that sounds, it was more the idea of me that I wished I could be.  I never managed to write more than a few pages and over time I started using Wvelkala as a screenname, particularly in gaming.  The added benefit being I’d never encounter a username clash as it was a word I made up.

    Back in the heyday of LiveJournal, I saw someone offering to transliterate words or names into the Tolkein elvish script, so I got Wvelkala converted.  The Lord of the Rings movies in the early 00’s were a big deal in my life and my family’s life back then so it felt natural to bring these two elements of fantasy together.  Originally, I used the image as a profile picture on gaming platforms and only later thought about it as a possible tattoo.

    When I was 17 (and for a few years afterwards) I wanted to get the word ‘Sonne’ on my inside wrist, inspired by the Rammstein song of the same name.  I also had an idea to have the original Doom cheat codes IDDQD and IDKFA on the inside of my middle fingers.  Neither of these came about and when I started my first full time job there was a chap in the team who had tattoos and was working through a sleeve at the time.  Thanks to his patience for fielding all the questions I had about tattoos, the process, the healing and a couple of recommendations of studios I felt a lot more confident to go out and take my idea to an artist.

    I went with Modern Body Art in Birmingham as both owners, Jo and Matt, were highly renowned and everyone at the studio’s work looked impeccable.  Plus, they were an easy bus ride from where I lived at the time.  I emailed in and then came in with my elvish script on a print out and saw Ricardo Pedro who suggested adding some extra decoration around the word so it looked more like a complete tattoo.  He also persuaded me to go a little bigger than I initially planned and trusting that he knew what he was talking about I agreed on both fronts.  I booked a date and paid a deposit and was on my way.

    A design was ready a week before for me to pop in and have a look, I don’t think I managed to get over there until two days before but when I did I was bowled over in love with what he’d done.  It was simple and it made such an impact.  I had been anxious about seeing the design and not liking it so it was a huge weight off.

    Tattoo at two weeks old

    I had the tattoo on a Monday.  I took the day off work.  I didn’t heed the warnings to have a high-calorie breakfast so I nearly keeled over about 10 minutes after we started.  A boat load of emergency sugar later I was fine.  It hurt but not as much as I’d expected.  I had more trouble with my back objecting to having to sit up without support for such a long period of time (this was before I had been diagnosed with Fibro or ME so I hadn’t mentioned anything to the studio about back problems).  Owing to my chronic pain conditions, I don’t think me rating the pain out of 10 is going to be much help to anyone as my nerves and pain levels are all sorts of wonky.

    For healing, I used Bepanthen (don’t use this nowadays, they have changed the recipe and it is no longer suitable for healing tattoos!) after the first night.  Yes, it was itchy AF when it started to scab but once it was healed, I didn’t need any touch-ups and I was superbly chuffed with it.  It made me feel confident and powerful and I, almost immediately, started thinking about the next one.  Now that it is 5.5 years old, it hasn’t seen much fade or wear and tear as it is usually under clothing – when it isn’t the factor 50 sun-cream in covering it up.  Sometimes I forget it’s there because I never see it during the course of a regular day, which likely has contributed to the placement of my next 4 tattoos being visible to me.

    The one thing that I noted to myself for the future was to make sure I always left enough time for healing between a tattoo and a summer holiday where I might want to go swimming.  I don’t think it particularly effected me that year but I was a bit anxious about it given it was my first tattoo.

     

  • Watched: IT (2017)

    Watched: IT (2017)

    In the run-up to Halloween, Amazon have added a variety of films to their Prime Video service and that includes the 2017 version of Stephen King’s ‘IT’.  It is likely worth noting that I have not read the book nor seen the previous film from 1990 as I have a tempestuous relationship with King’s work and others’ adaptations of it.  Some of his writing I find entertaining but I have also started plenty of his books and put them back down as his style grates on me too much.  As such I have a healthy scepticism towards films/TV shows based on his work.

    That’s one reason why I didn’t see IT (2017) earlier.  Another is simply I had no one to go to the cinema with to see it and without that other person my impetus to go dissipates quickly.  Nevertheless, when I saw it on Prime Video I thought I could pass a couple of hours and then, at least, I could see Chapter Two at some point.

    It was mid-afternoon when I put it on and before long I had to shut the curtains because the darker scenes and shots were impossible to see.  If I can’t watch your show/film in the daytime, you’ve already lost some of my confidence in you.  Not everyone can or does sit in a pitch-black room to watch TV or films at home; if your photography doesn’t transfer well on the small screen it is fairly obvious you weren’t considering your long-term audience needs.

    For those who haven’t seen/read IT before, you might have thought, like I did, from the trailers that Georgie (the kid in the yellow rain jacket) featured quite centrally to the film and would  have a lot of screen-time.  Not so.  I knew he was going to disappear after having a chat with Pennywise via a storm drain but I thought that was going to be later in the film than it was.  It is right at the start of the film in a spectacularly swift escalation of bloody violence that you don’t really see again.  After seeing the whole film, what happens to Georgie at the onset seems out of place.

    I have been told that the book is much more gory so perhaps, in that context, Georgie’s fate isn’t a stand-out event.  In general, the film did not seem as gory as I had been told the book is.  So I was expecting to need to look away and in the end, did not.  I’m not complaining, I think gore in films is unnecessary most of the time, I’m only pointing out that if you have read the book please bear in mind I have not so my impressions are based solely on the film.

    As the film progresses, we’re introduced to the Losers’ Club as they gain new members, and try to enjoy their summer while juggling Billy’s (Georgie’s older brother) desire to keep looking for his brother, trying to avoid the violent older kids lead by the police chief’s son Henry, and actually having some summer fun.

    It all starts to go a bit wrong when Pennywise starts popping up and filling their heads with scary visions – all depending on each character’s deepest fear.  Beverly, the sole girl of the group, sees blood.  Lots of it.  A geyser of blood erupts from her bathroom sink and drenches the entire room and her.  In an earlier scene we saw her looking anxious and confused at the prospect of buying sanitary products.  So it’s no great leap to see what King’s trying to do here and it echoes parts of ‘Carrie’ – a girl starting puberty suddenly ends up covered in blood?  Puberty hits the female body and all hell breaks loose.  It’s a little hackneyed and I found myself rolling my eyes at the obviousness of it.

    Through some town research the kids realise that terrible things happen every 27 years, which usually involves the deaths or disappearances of a lot of children.  They figure out everything links back to an old well that dates back to the founding of the town as a mining camp.  Where the well stood is now a big creepy, derelict, old house, which is where one of them previously saw Pennywise.

    So Billy charges off thinking he’ll find Georgie, he persuades two of the others to go into the house with him; while they’re there, Billy spots the old well in the basement.  They get separated, injured and all have to retreat.  For a while, they disband, blaming Billy for nearly getting them all killed.

    Billy and Beverly are a little sweet on each other, so they plan to meet up, however when trying to leave Beverly’s disgusting abusive father tries to stop her leaving and in the ensuing fight she clocks him around the head with the cistern lid from the toilet.  Enter Pennywise, Exit Beverly.  Billy gets suspicious when she doesn’t show to their meeting, heads to her flat, spots the dead dad and when he can’t find Beverly, concludes ‘it’ got her.

    Billy rallies the troops who converge on the old creepy house and head for the well.  Meanwhile, Beverly wakes up in a different kind of cistern, filled with junk, trophies, and floating corpses.  And Pennywise, ‘the dancing clown’, whose dance in this scene was nothing short of ridiculous.  Beverly tries to escape and gets caught, she says she’ll never be scared of Pennywise, which he needs to feed off of her fear.  He makes her ‘float’ with some lights down his gullet.

    When the boys arrive, they pull Beverly down and wake her up with a kiss (sigh) before the whole team beat up Pennywise, who starts to disintegrate (a la Infinity War) and falls down a further hole never to be seen again.  After this, the floating corpses of all the kids who had gone missing start to come back down to the ground.  One of the characters even shouts that they’re “floating back down” and there’s a shot that shows this.  Next they’re all in a meadow a month or so later with Beverly telling of what she saw while she was floating (all of them, back in the cistern except older).  What happened to the dead children?  Did they tell any adults where they were?  Were they retrieved and buried?  What was the point of highlighting them floating back down and then paying no further attention to them?  Why has Beverly waiting over a month to tell them all what she saw?

    Finally, the Losers’ Club all swear a blood oath to come back if ‘it’ ever comes back too.  Of course, they all slice their palms with broken glass, which is a ridiculously difficult place to heal sharp injuries and scars very easily.  I bet none of them have scars in Chapter Two though.  Beverly leaves the town to go live with her Aunt, Billy kisses her goodbye and the ominous words ‘Chapter One’ appear on screen.

    It was entertaining with a few problems for me and that, given the hype and accolades it received, left me a bit disappointed.  How much of that should be directed at the source material and how much directed at the film itself, I couldn’t say.

    Rating: 3/5

  • Live: Rammstein

    19 June 2019 – Telia Parken

  • Read: The Twisted Tree

    I picked up The Twisted Tree because it was a) cheap, b) fairly short and c) set in Norway. It sounded interesting and the cover art helped a little too. I was intrigued how the setting would interact with the story and to that point I hadn’t read much set in Scandinavia. I admit points a & b appealed because I felt I was falling behind on my Reading Challenge and needed a bump; nevertheless I ended up enjoying the book more than I expected.

    We follow a young teen, Martha, who has had an accident leaving her blind in one eye and with some facial scarring. Not only that, she has begun to sense things whenever she touches others’ clothes: feelings, memories & intent. Her accident happened at her Grandmother’s cabin in northern Norway, when falling out of a big tree that her Grandmother tends to, and she hasn’t been back since. After writing her Grandmother a host of un-replied letters asking about her new found sense, she travels to the cabin my herself.

    What she finds when she gets to the cabin isn’t what she was hoping for. She meets Stig, a teenage boy who has also run away from home, and together they face some terrible monsters – both real and metaphorical – before Martha has to truly embrace her new ‘condition’ in order to save their lives.

    This is a well-written supernatural tale that anyone with even a passing interest in Norse mythology should pick up. It isn’t quite ‘horror’ and it isn’t quite ‘coming of age’ but the book does have elements of both. It deals with a line of women who have a shared heritage to protect and what might happen if the chain through the generations is broken. It also looks at the repairing of mother-daughter relationships and, in particular, where the child is guiding the adult through a complicated situation.

    The character building by Burge is very good and the story is well-paced and engaging. It is a quick read at 180 pages and still a perfectly formed story that left me wondering where these characters would end up next.

    4/5

     

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